The decision to take my first pole class was a surprisingly easy one. I was actually searching Groupon for adult hip-hop classes in the Manassas area. I found the Dollhouse, and thought… why not? After all, I knew little about pole fitness besides that it seemed to be gaining more mainstream traction lately, so I signed up. But, I wasn’t prepared for one little intro class to completely change my life. I suppose you rarely ever are.
After my first class I had to have more. In those 30 minutes I felt more free, more confident and sexy than I had ever felt in the previous 24 years combined. It was a total body workout, woo buddy, do not let anyone tell you pole is easy! But it is so, SO worth it.
The reason, the real reason, I go back, 2 years later, despite numerous challenges, is not because of how I feel during, but because of how I feel when I leave the studio. Sore, exhausted, and swelling with pride.
Every time I dance, the world doesn’t matter. Being 220 lbs doesn’t matter. Being short doesn’t matter. Being broke doesn’t matter. Nothing except me and the music matter. And knowing I’ve got a studio full of badass bitches (not just women!) cheering me on and helping me when I can’t nail this one move or I feel so tired I can barely stand, just pushes me on further.
Pole is unique because it doesn’t matter who you are or what you do for a living or how your body looks, anybody can do it. It’s about you and the music and the escape, it’s about holding up your fists and giving a big middle finger to the world that kept you down. That told you that you were not good enough. Not pretty enough. Not strong enough.
It’s looking that world right in the eye and saying “Yes. I. Am.”
Alanna is currently working in the Northern Virginia area. She graduated from GMU with a degree in theatre, where she specialized in lighting, costume design, and insomnia. In her free time, alongside pole fitness, she enjoys karaoke, renaissance fairs, glass etching, and quiet evenings in with nothing but a onesie and Netflix. More than anything, she dreams of being able to make money being creative.